I don't know what to do about Marc. I just struggle so much with him and as he gets older I know less and less how to help him. I don't know if he is just a normal 8-year old boy or if there is really a problem. He doesn't listen at all. He has an excuse ready at all times. He is impatient and his anger gets out of control to the point where I keep Rachael away from him at times. It's not that I think he will inflict real harm on her, it's just that he might throw something in anger or just be too rough. His anger is fierce and irrational and quick.
He tells us all the time that he no one loves him and everyone is against him. Honestly, it feels manipulative. I'm just having a harder time caring that his feelings might be hurt and just wanting him to to take a little responsibility for his actions, listen more often and calm down.
Tonight the stress of it spilled into my evening with Tom and it spurred an argument at first which is incredibly rare for us, and then a heartfelt talk. And I cried and cried and couldn't stop the stupid crying, also rare, and as a matter of fact I'm still sitting here crying two hours after he has gone to bed.
And I can't even tell you why and no mother, I am not about to get my period.
Sigh. There are some things I guess I can't really blog about. There are peaks and valleys in a marriage and I guess we're going through a valley. I expect it to get better it's just for the first time, I don't know what it's going to take.
Have you ever gone through a valley without a map? How did you navigate out?
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